I know your fears, I know the panic,
I know the stories you tell
I know you never feel good enough
I know your special brand of hell
I’m sorry you never learned to trust
I tried to explain and help you see…
If I claim you as one of my own,
It’s because you’re good enough for me
It’s not enough to respect me
Its not enough to idealize
You must trust in every way
Or the fear will gladly paralyze
Secret loathing of the self
Is hardly what I’d call service
At no point during your training
Were you ever instructed to be nervous
I understand you doubt yourself
You are convinced that you’ll never do
And that’s the only thing that prevents
Your happiness from being true
I’m sorry you never learned to trust
Those feelings are certainly rough
But lack of trust in me, doesn’t mean
That I’m not good enough
You would have been fine
More than fine; even happy, too
But you’d rather torture and blame yourself
Than figure out the right thing to do
Stopping short at the finish line
Is more painful than never beginning
Raking yourself over the coals of loss,
When you could so easily be winning
You might not feel worthy and so you jump
In the opposite direction of fear
Martyrdom and suffering yield nothing,
Although you force us to watch… and hear
In that deep chest of memories
You have simple tools that you can use
To ease the burden and the stress,
To help determine the next step to choose
A thousand times you can learn the game
A thousand times, start the race
Eventually you’ll have had more than enough
But those fears, you’ll still have to face
Unless of course, in the meantime
You manage to break that thing called you
We all stand back and helplessly pray;
Because there’s nothing else we can do
The power to ask, the decision to heal
It all rests solidly in your hands
Choose the work or choose easy escape
But don’t ever say that no one understands
Choose the path of sacrifice and work
Or choose the path of pleasure and strife
But there’s more love flowing over you, child
Than many know in their whole life
Ask for help and pick your team
Having chosen, never wander or doubt
An hour’s pleasure will distract you, yes
But it never points the way out
Like I said before and will again,
It’s no harder for you, than for them
You are more than capable of saving yourself
Or you may, yourself, condemn
All alone, or in twos
The ones who really love you
Walk up and down, outside the wall
Some hand in hand,
Some gather together in bands
The bleeding hearts and the artists
Make their stands
And when they’ve given you their all,
Some stagger and fall, after all it’s not easy
Banging your heart against some mad bugger’s wall
—Pink Floyd, Outside The Wall, from the album, The Wall
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